TB: Tal's (poetry) blog

Life

2010-11-09T00:03:00.003-06:00

I spent today on reasoning,
How and why I should not--
Cut a disposable line for
Once.

The conclusion, rather clear,
Speaks of inevitable silence--
The existence of misused
Oxygen.

Sounds of loved one's voice,
Links and they always burn--
Trepidations of introverted
Hearts.

Some say that life is sacred--
I'm just scared of the devil.

Updates

2010-09-06T12:37:00.003-05:00

To my dear readers.

I haven’t posted any poems in what seems like forever. I do actually have new stuff, but I’m not sure if I can post them.
The thing is, I’m going to use poems for some applications, and I don’t know if legally, I can post AND send at the same time. It really frustrates me because I have new pieces to display, and I want to post them, since you know, I bet my blog is extremely boring right now. I realize that it is. For that I apologize.
Hopefully by May I’ll be able to post things again. I know, May is in too many months, but please don’t give up on me.
I do want to put things here. I have a short story, and several poems, and yet I can’t post them. .

Please visit again in a few months.
Sorry again, and thanks for the support.

Best,
Tal

"Out Of Tears" by The Rolling Stones

2010-05-03T20:50:00.001-05:00

Since I don't have any muse, and this song describes pretty much perfectly the way that I feel, then I thought about posting its lyrics. Enjoy, or don't.

"I can't feel
Feel a thing
I can't shout
I can't scream
Breathe it out
Breathe it in
All this love
From within

I won't cry when you say goodbye
I'm out of tears
I won't die when you wave goodbye
I'm out of tears
Out of tears

I won't drink
I won't eat
I can't hear
I won't speak
Let it out
Let it in
All this pain
From within
And I just can't pour my heart out
To another living thing
I'm a whisper
I'm a shadow
But I'm standing up to sing
won't cry when you say goodbye
I'm out of tears
I won't die when you wave goodbye
I'm out of tears, yes I am
I won't cry, I swear my eyes are dry
I'm out of tears
I won't cry, I'm going to tell you why
I'm out of tears
Out of tears
Out of tears
let it out
From within
Some you lose
Some you win
I can drift
I can dream
Til I float
Off your screen
And I just can't pore my heart out
To another living thing
I'm a whisper
I'm a shadow
But I'm standing up to sing
I won't cry when you say goodbye
I'm out of tears
I won't die when you wave goodbye
I'm out of tears
I won't cry, I swear my eyes are dry
I'm out of tears
I won't cry, I'm going to tell you why
I'm out of tears
Out of tears
Out of tears"

Aging

2010-03-01T00:18:00.003-06:00

I am older than numbers can show

And younger than sadness proves

Yet this frequent tendency to judge

Is what worsens my senses

I smile to myself instead of crying

And imagine different circumstances

Yet this frequent tendency to hurt

Is what kills me from the inside

I think of death.

Death scares me.

Birthdays

2010-02-10T01:40:00.003-06:00

I am nobody

mean nothing, love no one

I am nobody,

invisible, careless, hopeless

I am nobody

who wants to be a somebody

who loves and cares

I am nobody

who wants to be a somebody

and not just an invisible, unspoken of, shadow

Good Night

2010-01-10T18:36:00.002-06:00

On a breezy day in May,

a boat heads to some exotic location.

A clock starts ticking in Asia,

children count days and hours.

Someone awaits you.

Adieu

Hunters Lane

2010-01-10T18:32:00.003-06:00

[To] sort through old newspapers, enveloped letters,

[To] read a poem, or two, or six,

[To] pass by an airport, a bridge,

[To] wish for a different ending, somewhat divine,

[To] wake up looking for the rain

to love you; to be in love with you.

Falling, Yes, I Am Falling

2009-12-20T00:49:00.002-06:00

Standing on top of a cliff,

Looking for answers.

Light on the bottom,

Then darkness of some night,

Why not fall,

let the body drown,

then float,

Reach new heights of stupidity and selfishness?

Idealism

2009-06-15T03:33:00.001-05:00

Even if the coffee jar is empty,
Even if the luggage is packed and ready to go,
Even if the car is not in the garage,
Even if Sunday does not include football,
A man doesn’t just wake up in the morning feeling nothing whatsoever.
He might be in love though

Stereotypes

2009-05-17T04:28:00.002-05:00

Pregnant women,
motionless embryos,
heineken and corona,

Trips to Amherst,
loud rock-n’-roll,
two unstable seconds,

Deaths of friends,
perhaps their cruel and
unforgettable ignorance,

Sirens and angels,
madness and blood,
wheels and pavements,

Skulls and sinners,
Saviors and addicts,

The wrong ones are not the ones to pay.

Winter

2009-04-12T04:55:00.006-05:00

I love you that your swaying smile follows me around.
I love that you wear the gray sweater whenever
snow falls upon Autumn Dr.
I love that the house smells like fresh coffee in mornings
after long nights of thunder.
Loving you means constantly fighting the
entire world, I know that, and I don't mind,
because Seth,
I think I might have fallen for You.

Spring

2009-04-12T04:45:00.006-05:00

When the weatherman announces a
tornado watch and trees start moving in
semi-circles, nearly fragile in your eyes,
When locked in a room for hours,
no windows, only chairs, calculators
and deep fried bananas,
The next best thing besides
Dying alone at the strike of summer,
Is seeing you again, because it has been
Way too long

2009-01-29T02:43:00.001-06:00

I'm done writing

Poetry

2008-09-07T12:52:00.000-05:00

Listening to your voice
cutting all edges of doubt
What have you done to me,
why would you hurt me again?

Pictures,
the only thing to rely on
when it comes to remembering
The Man who changed a life(time)

Keep doing what you do
make people fall for your art
that’s you occupation.
Take care though

Time Capsule

2008-08-22T04:49:00.000-05:00

The simple melody of a piano
Brings back old days, (old nights)
It is sort of absurd, to think about the past
And wish to go back in time.

The Cold And Unexpected

2008-08-14T16:22:00.002-05:00

Does the way the wind blows trees in semi-circles have anything to do with medications you take five times a day, trying to make you crazy, or is it just winter?

Your Smell

2008-07-26T18:50:00.004-05:00

Seeing pictures of you
Always makes me wonder
Why smells, just like feelings,
Cannot be captured in small pieces of paper

Stupidity

2008-07-24T18:33:00.001-05:00

Even if I were the greatest lawyer
Or the most amazing debater alive-
I still wouldn’t be able to justify
Appreciating the wrong person

Just another love song

2008-06-25T22:09:00.002-05:00

So you wake up in the morning and realize that she's not around.
And you go to the bathroom to brush your teeth and see only one toothbrush.
Then you walk down the stairs and see the empty chair she used to sit on,
The orange juice she used to drink,
The beers you've celebrated with whenever your favorite team won a game.
And she's gone,
Like a bird moving from one place to another, chasing the unknown.
She could never stay at the same place for more than a year.
You dress up,
The clean shirt she ironed for you, your cologne that she liked so much,
The pants you bought together the day you were honored,
It isn't easy to forget her.
She really knew you.
She even told you she wanted you to join her. You should have listened to her.
You should have told her that you loved her. Now it's too late. She's gone

Supply And Demand

2008-05-19T21:44:00.003-05:00

A slight friction
Between the known and unknown.
The known, when is gone, no longer exists.
The unknown, when is never in mind, separates.
A body touches an object, winds blow you away.
Nothing changes but no longer stays the same.
Kept love, after a year and a half.
A slight friction, a gap, a barrier,
Between who you, what you stand for.
Zero gravity.
Endless thoughts of communication.
There is nothing left to say, nothing left to lose.

Separation

2008-05-03T22:38:00.008-05:00

Just another person
Just another day
Unjust situations, all at the same day.
Just another thought
Just another kiss
Unjust separation, it's time to say goodbye.
Just another minute
A critical minute for you;
Just another day without you

To Forget

2008-03-17T18:48:00.000-05:00

Rough, heavy rain,
Falls and breaks dreams apart.
The sun is out, skies are blue,
The darkness of the heart,
How can it not change the color, the mood?
Staring at two hands, scratches of hate,
Signs of life, mixed with signs of death.
If only once more,
No more than a couple of minutes are needed,
To say it’s all different, but still the same,
See how life hides all lies without getting caught.
And then look into her eyes,
Explain it’s impossible to miss what’s in there.
Scripts are still hanged on walls,
A collection of old letters is still kept in a box,
But something that used to be so real,
So complex, and simple at the same time,
Becomes no more than a shadow of forgotten days,
Gone, irreplaceable

Love

2008-03-16T00:19:00.000-05:00

Gravity drags force into your hands
The envelope is pushed off the chair
They reject your work after many busy nights
They crush your lonely selfish heart
News arrive quickly to your ears
You ignore words that are not about you
By the lake late hours of sunset
A crying ocean like a crying child of life
And no matter if the lights are on or off
Secrets are being told to total strangers
You still keep feeling sorry for yourself
Although you have everything you need
You have everything you want
Except for one thing;
The love of your life

Dead

2007-12-30T03:25:00.000-06:00

Closing time,
How easily could you forget?
Wished nothing mattered,
But wishes never come true.
It was known, the end was close,
The moment comes to an end,
After all the gloomy nights, the silence…
Never asked to wait for you
When you come back, half dead
Nor cry day after day
About a lost generation.
Promises won’t be remembered,
Even though they weren’t made.
You are forgiven,
Eventually
Forgotten

Economic Match

2007-11-11T12:45:00.003-06:00

Fold an origami heart and rip it apart,
Look after the pieces and try to pull them back together-
Nothing stays the same after it reaches the bottom.

Dead End.

Books and newspapers on a table,
Old photographs of lost hours,
Have you ever tried to listen
To the rain knocking on the window?

Literature.

Time has passed silently,
Economic decisions were made,
Students struggled with decimals,

Life
Will
Come
To
An
End

Lights

2007-10-20T21:06:00.005-05:00

Lights turning on and off as she moves slowly,
paralyzed by the cold wind, motionless.
She hates these tears, the shiny breakable tears,
sliding down her face, the eyeliner all over,
the way the heart is threatening to collapse.
She walks down the busy street,
the city doesn't seem to care much about her.
She's moving slowly, as if she has no destination.
Pictures moving up and down,
cars poisoning the sky, people sitting in metro
station and playing violins for some pennies.
There is always the ambition
to go to bed and never have to wake up.
Life destroys too many people,
with a reason or without.
We look to take advantage of things, of situations,
abusing images, revitalizing old magic tricks,
chasing the future, searching for soulmates,
trying to do something good for just once.
We grow up, not innocent anymore, so far away from
who we used to be, what we used to believe in.
Why did we have to grow old, changing, becoming meaner,
riskier, having no mercy towards the people we love? Why did we
have to find each other wrong, then suffer
for the rest of our lives?

The art of drawing

2007-09-24T16:28:00.002-05:00

Draw the mess, the confusion in your voice, the panic, ruled by every single one of us.
Draw the sadness, the madness, controlling both- you and me.
It's like someone just turned everything upside down, and there's no way back.
I see you yell, trying to figure out a way to escape, when there isn't one.
I remember when you told me about you and Hailey; we haven't spoken for months.
We are all locked in a dark room, sitting and waiting for hours.
Draw the silence, the noisy silence, making us want to give up on our hopes.
Draw the little girl, sitting in the corner all alone, waiting for a rescuer.
Draw in an old notebook and throw it into a fire
-Soon, no one will remember its existence, our existence.

Rainy Saturday

2007-08-14T23:20:00.002-05:00

Can the rain wash my thoughts,
sadness?
Can it make my mind clearer,
my head to understand,
my eyes to see through the tears?

What can a rain do
on a Saturday's afternoon?
It's just another rainy
Saturday without you.

Marc

2007-07-25T01:36:00.002-05:00

Silent voice has whispered in my ear
but when I finally heard it, it was too late.

Soft lips had kissed my cheek
but when I finally realized, it was too late.

Dry hands had hugged me
but when I finally felt the warmth, it was gone.

Tired look has looked at me with bright eyes
but when I finally looked back, it was over.

A whisper,
Everything is finished
Marc is dead.

I love you

2007-06-08T18:08:00.003-05:00

I.
I love you
when you're real and honest
When you are tired of the long day you drew
and just want to feel
what a good sleep is.

II.
I love you
when you read out loud
with your deep voice, soft lips,
memories from your past.

III.
I love you
when you look into my eyes
and smile,
without saying a word.

IV.
I love you
when you are here
and I can hear you breathing
heavily, alive.

V.
I love you
when you talk about your childhood
full with Passion and excitement,
when you are nearly fragile

VI.
I love you
Perhaps I love you still,
But what difference does it make
If you are no longer alive?

The image

2007-06-06T17:33:00.002-05:00

I try to wash the image,
I try to flush it down the drain.
I use soap and water,
But it doesn't go off.

I try to forget the image
That cannot be forgotten,
Try to make it disappear,
Against all odds.
Nothing works,
The image is stuck in my head
The image will stay there forever-
Your image

If you say so...

2007-06-04T17:40:00.002-05:00

If you say so,
I believe you,

But honestly,
it ain't easy
to keep falling aftet you

Hallways

2007-04-26T19:54:00.002-05:00

I think I love you
Or maybe it's just your new glasses